WHO AM I?

I'm very sure this question will cross everyone's mind ...

WHO AM I?

This question pop into our minds not because we don't know who we are or we've grown totally senile that we've forgotten our names...

Perhaps the real reason is we don't know;

i. how's our character like?
ii. what's people's impression of us when they first see us?
iii. why do we change so much from year to year when we're just a year older?
iv. what do i really like? OR am i just following the trend, trying to stay on the beaten track?
v. why are we so fickle minded when we're asked to make a decision? OR is it because we don't know what we want?
vi. why do we disobey order when we know that it should be obeyed?

There are many other questions that question us about ourselves...

DO WE HAVE DOUBLE PERSONALITY?
DO WE KNOW OURSELVES ?
DO WE KNOW WHAT WE ACTUALLY WANT?

We tend to follow the footsteps of our parents, siblings, friends, idols...

But we follow just to show that;
i. we are not backdated...
ii. we are not outdated...
iii. we are matured...
iv. we possess the same ability as the person we hero-worshipped...
v. we want to be as capable as the people we idolised...
vi. we want to have a common topic to talk about when we group together with our friends

WHY ?
ARE WE COPYCATS?

Many people are not pursuing their own dreams, instead they are pursuing the dreams of their parents...
Many chose their career path, not based on their interest and capability, instead they chose it because of the market demand or the high pay offered..
Many ended up quitting their jobs or feeling stressed up as they don't fully enjoy or do their jobs willingly...

So we are the ones who determine our future, right?
Why do we follow others?

Besides our future and ambition, we mimic our more popular friends or seniors just to get attention...

Why don't we have our own style and character?
Why do we have to mimic others?

We follow other's apparel and outlook...
We wear dresses following the latest trend although it doesn't really suit us at all...
We don't mind wearing clothings that make us feel uncomfortable all because we want to look as trendy as our pals...

Many of you out there might be shaking your heads or getting really fed up with this denial...

BUT think again!!!

We might not know ourselves that well...

However, we should give this issue a serious thought. We should give ourselves a real and definite personality that suits us as this will make us more likeable and appealing...

WHY BE OTHERS WHEN WE ARE OURSELVES?
WHY MIMIC OTHERS WHEN WE ARE BORN AS DIFFERENT INDIVIDUALS?

GIVE IT A THOUGHT!!!

PMR Results!!! ARGGH!

20 days to go...

The most dreaded day by all form three students!

It's the PMR result day!

The thought of it itself is murderous!

PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will i get 7A's?
Will i live up to my expectations?

Will i be able to enter 4Sc1?

Will my friends get straight A's?

Will we be in the same class next year?

Will my school hit the targeted result?

WILL I REALLY GET 7A'S?

All these questions kept popping into my mind everytime i pass by the school, when i see my friends, when chatting with my friends, when looking at my friends' sisters who had received their UPSR results, when closing my eyes, in my dreams...

ARGGH!!!

I hope that this will stop ASAP!

But i don't want to get my result so soon!!!

Oh GOD!!!

Someone HELP!!!

It's so torturing!

I believe that many of my friends are facing this traumatic problem (or maybe even all of them)!

I believe that the teachers are looking forward to our results too!

Will it be a HAPPY or SAD event?

The result day is just days before my 15th birthday?

Will i have a HAPPY or SAD birthday?

It's so depressing!

If anyone of you face the same problem, or maybe you've experience all this before, you're welcomed to share your rather MIXED and CONFUSED feelings with me at hazelyi@hotmail.com or you can just tag me...

*Because an extra companion will at least be able to calm and comfort our soul... Hahax!!!*

ARGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OLD FRIENDS, FOND MEMORIES IN MALACCA

It has been 7 years since we last met. It's a long time indeed. We had all grown up, either taller and prettier or fatter and uglier.


It had been so long. I missed all of you so much. Everytime i flip open my dear autograph book, fond memories flooded my mind. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. Miss! I missed all the joy i had in Malacca. I missed my old friends, my old classmates. I missed all the loving teachers in SK CIJ 2. I missed our headmistress. I missed every corner of our old school.


School...


I'd passed by it several times whenever i go holiday-ing in the "good old Malacca". It's so nostalgic. Images of my friends, one by one, were popping into my mind. Although it's just two years, but these two years are the two firsts years i'm in a school as a primary student. I started my education here. I still remember when i was sitting for a test on the first day of school. I still remember when i first gotten my school result slip. I got almost all E's and F's. In the end, i was posted to the last class. Hahax!


I remembered how all the students were brought to safety when a fire broke out in our school computer room. I saw the blaze myself. I remembered the times when i was selected by my class teacher to take part in a fashion show competition. I remembered the times when i was performing a chinese dance on stage during the school's Family Day dinner at Hotel Equatorial. I remembered the times when i was nominated as one of the prefects in standard three. But sadly, i moved to JB the following year so i hadn't have the chance to be a prefect. Arggh!


I remembered the times when i attended the Taekwondo lesson every friday at our very own school hall. I remembered my seniors. All juniors have to bow to the seniors every time we see them, even out of the hall, before and after training. I remembered the times when i took part and won the telematch race during school sports day. There were 4 teams in our school, Emerald, Saphire, Topaz and Ruby. Our team, Emerald House, emerged as the overall champ for two years! Yay!


There were two embarrasing events that happened during my school days in SK CIJ 2. First, I pooed in my panties during an assembly after recess(i think). Another one was when i stepped on dog poo when we were having a photoshoot session in our Chinese dance performance suit. Oh! The two poo-poo event! Hahax! How embarrasing!


Friends...


I missed all my friends. We used to be in the same class. We study and play together. We run around the class, passing around notes and chit-chatting every time we see each other. Sometimes we bicker. Sometimes we laugh together. I still remember telling off one of my closest friend who kept instructing me to buy food for her. We started quarreling and we ended up crying. Hahax! But in the end. we are still very close friends. I still remember one of my friend, who had migrated to Australia, writing a note to me. It's like "You are my BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST..... friend!" She wrote 2 pages full of BEST! Hahax! That's the first letter i received. I was awed at first but later on i was very happy that someone actually wanted to be my BEST friend!


Few days ago, i registered my very first account on Facebook. At first i was searching for my present classmates to be added as friends, but suddenly someone's name popped into my mind. I shan't reveal who it is but it's one of my Malacca classmates. Finally, i found three ex-classmates on Facebook and they'd confirmed me as their friend! Yay! My long lost friends! We've finally reunited! Oh, what a great feeling it is!


I'm currently attempting to get my other friends on Facebook but till now there's no one else there other than the three of them. Oh well, i shan't give up! I'll continue searching for my old friends!


SONG...


This song had been stucked in my head from the very first assembly in SK CIJ 2.


We are the students of Convent Infant Jesus
Together here as one
We pledge our loyalty to you
The school we love so dear
We work and play
We dedicate ourselves
To be fair and brave
And strong


[So we the students
Give a cheer
To the Convent I J] x2


The above lyrics were written only based on my memory. So there might be some errors here and there. If anyone knows this song and the lyric(in BM also), please e-mail it to me at hazelyi@hotmail.com, no matter you're current or ex-students of SK CIJ 2.

SK CONVENT INFANT

JESUS 2 MELAKA!!!

INTRO TO "THE NUTS BLOG - HAZELYI"

Hi readers (if there's any),



Here's a little introduction to my new blog "The Nuts Blog - Hazelyi".



Why this name?

I guess many of you would be able to guess why did i choose this rather ODD name. But for those who are still pondering, i shall tell you. Well if you notice, my name is Hazel which is also the name of a nut. So that makes the reason, why?...



I had created this blog months ago, but due to the never-ending workload given by our beloved teachers (knowing that it's "for our own good"), i had to wait till after PMR (or to be more precise, during the holidays) to kick off the blogging mood and activity.



So yea...



I have another blog!

Many would ask why did i start posting only a month after the long awaited holiday starts? Well i had been busy with another blog, written in Bahasa Malaysia. The blog address is nocciola.blogdrive.com. Feel free to visit my blog.



Then, why do i start a new blog when many people had problems just handling one?



I've considered having a bilingual blog, but by mixing the two languages up, my blog would be so messy, mundane and unpresentable. That's why i started blogging in English.



Fun & Games



I had added a few games and quotes section at the side of my blog. It took me quite long getting all those gadgets on my blog because i hardly go online, blogging, for the past few years. So i had been a total blogging idiot. But again kudos to me as i finally managed to get a nice blogskin, added a few gadgets and finally gotten the Cbox onto my blog! Yay!



Last but not least, .....



Hope that this blog will have some readers, some followers. I would like to express my gratitude to all who drop by and peek into my blog. Thanks a lot! Do enjoy the posts, games and quotes!